i realised that actually when someone decided to do something and they will only 'THINK' of it instead of 'DOING' it..i admit that this is a normal thing and everyone do so..like people like me know how to 'SAY' and 'THINK' but not 'DO'..such a depressed life..because you will never get what you want unless you go and do it..sometime i was thinking that what if later i really have to leave home and live myself alone???

can i cope with that??

my answer is I DON'T KNOW!!

as i never leave home for long..and if it is then it will be like a very long time..damn!!i will be really HOMESICK i think..everyone experience homesick..for sure those who already away from their home..they still walked over it..so why not me??!!haha..

but sometime you will think to run away from home because nobody will ask what time you going back or come home before what time..

actually i am quite use to it that i have something so called 门禁..there's someone who totally dislike that one..they want to stay outside till very late and even only want to go home in the morning..

if it's the case then why you need a home..what you need only a room a hotel or even only a bed but not a home!!

home so called home because we feel free when we are in there not feel like living in the prison..we have to think that home is most safety place for us and we feel comfort when we are in there..

you have your wings that because your parents give it to you..if not you will never have a chance to let your wings grow big enough that can let you fly up high..

what's my future??

at first, i thought that i was clear with that but now, i think i am getting lost again..

i don't know what can i do and maybe i know what should i do but i am just unwilling to do so..

STUDY STUDY STUDY are the words in my mind and i was just 'THINK'..

i just can't pick myself up to study and now i can't believe that whether i can cope when it comes to the end or maybe only the beginning of my life..

maybe i will get killed in the beginning!!haha..

~wen~